Stuck between 149 and 150 lbs

I have been yo-yoing betwen 149 and 150 lbs for a month now! Well, I suppose the way I have been eating, its sort of a good news. 

Shit!

Shit! Why do I eat so much?!?!

150 lbs!

Yippe!! Its 150 lbs! I am half way to my "at least be this fat" weight! :P I had been thinking that if nothing more, at least I should be 140 lbs! So I am half way there. Although I should go at least as low as 132 lbs. 

Pieces of Wisdom...

I have trying to follow this piece of wisdom and also that "don't eat carbs after 7 pm". But I have noticed that if I have a big breakfast I tend to get very hungry by 1 pm. I guess small breakfast just doesn't kick start the metabolsim and doesn't make me feel hungry. 

I miss food! :(

I miss the pleasure of eating whatever I want and how much I want!

And that's why I ate so much today! Good stuff, too much nonetheless. I was 68 kgs (150 lbs) today, don't know how much I would weigh tomorrow. 

69 KGS!!

Yahooooo!! I am in my sixties! I can't remember the last time I weighed 69 kgs. At least not in March 2011, so probably in 2010.  

An year's time...

Sept 2012: I was 80 kgs
Sept 2013: I am 70 kgs!
Want to be 60 kgs by Dec 2013...

Thank heavens!!

Thank God, I managed to lose the weight I had gained in the last 2 weeks.

Couple of good days

I have been on a good diet for a couple of days now....feeling good about myself. 

Heart break

Someone said that weight loss comes after a lot of heart break....my first real heart break came yesterday when the scales said that I had gained 4 pounds rather than losing 4 pounds as I thought I might 2 weeks ago.

I am depressed :( What's the use of all this effort when I am not going to be skinny? 

Shit! Shit! Shit!

I checked my weight after 2 weeks and I have GAINED FOUR POUNDS!! Shit, shit....and double shit!!

Slight difference!

I noticed my face looked a little slimmer today in the mirror, even the nose seemed thinner and pointier. Made me grin! :)

Charged!

I did 20 minutes of interval walking/jogging today. Man! I am feeling so fresh! So that's how people feel after a workout?

Lazy!

I am so lazy when it comes to exercising. Or maybe I get bored doing it all alone. Walking with someone is so fun....I keep talking and walking and that too at quite a good speed! Exercising all alone is BORING!

Self-esteem

Sometimes my self-esteem hits rock bottom...only regarding my body and weight. Otherwise I am pretty secure about my looks (been blessed, no credit to me), or mind (I know I am smart!) or dough! Or maybe it wouldn't be fair to people if I am smart, rich AND thin too! :P Maybe God is being fair! :P

P.S. I just re-read the post! Man, I sound so full of myself! But I guess I deserve that after the recent rants! 

When?

When will I get to be thin and sexy and pretty and hot? When? When? When will I get not to worry how I might look in a picture? When will I get to be secure enough that no matter how anyone clicks the shot I'll be looking great in it? 

Ashamed!

I feel so ASHAMED today! I have been eating so much for the last few days and haven't been exercising at all! :(

Saw pictures of mine with my friends and I look pathetic/so-not-cool/ugly and fat!! 

Tried the new cardio/strength workout

Today I tried the workout posted in the previous post. Started it after a 20 mins walk on treadmill. Didn't get to complete the workout, gave up after 5 seconds into that 1 minute wall-sit. 

Thinking about adding this workout too....

Stuck at 154 lbs!

I have been stuck at 154 lbs for ages now....any suggestions on how to kick start the weight loss again? 

Stats 15th Aug

15th August 2013:

Current weight: 154 lbs
Target weight: 128 lbs
Target date: 14th Dec 2013